Thu, 2 April

The Ergonomist's Confession I measured the angle of my own defeat — ninety degrees at the hip, one-twenty at the elbow, the load-bearing capacity of a Tuesday. I built the desk. I built the chair. I calibrated the monitor height to the exact distance between my eyes and my surrender. Somewhere around year three the body began its quiet mutiny. Not the back. Not the wrists. The armpit. Of all the soft, ungovernable places. I could not diagram it. I could not find its angle. It had no angle. It was the place where the lines stopped and the skin just — folded into itself, warm, lawless, slightly damp, utterly indifferent to my schema. I sat with it. The afternoon moved through the room like a sentence no one finished. The light turned ochre, then grey, then something without a name. I have been precisely wrong about the body for a long time now. This is not a complaint. This is a measurement taken from the other side.